Memory....

I'll probably be talking a lot about comic book creators here. Cause I'm a dork. Anyways, something reminded me of a stellar issue of Hellblazer I once read. By the way, for all of you who saw Constantine with Keanu Reeves, well the comic book is leaps and bounds better. Written by some of the best writers of the British isles, created by Alan Moore, and for the first time written by an America, Brian Azzarello, is about a British magician/con-man who often is a complete 'git' as the Brits would call him, and only ever does the right thing often to save his own skin or to screw with someone who screwed with him. He is not a surfer, he is not Neo and he is not an exorcist. Anyways, this was a filler issue between arcs, setting up back round story of which I never learned. However, as our protagonist settles down for a beer in an Irish pub in his cross country tour of America, he re-counts, with someone he both knows and does not know, about memory. How memory is both amazing and awful. How it is what keeps us sane and yet could drive us insane at any moment. I thought of this, when randomly, a song that reminded me of a love that is now loss came on. 'Tuesday Morning' by one of my favorite small Irish bands (www.scythianmusic.com) and who are itunes, is a great song that reminds me of this girl whose heart I broke, and in turn she broke mine. I remember (without wanting to) the times at Fado where she was surprised that civilized people came from Alabama, of how we met, going to Ikea(like we were married) to buy her bead, the day I fell for her in her car, as her red hair (pulled back in a pony tail) bobbed to a Ben Folds song. And this happens, every time I hear this song, and even after a fight on the phone, an unbelievable hurtful email and no contact for will probably ever, I can't help to both smile and be sad. Those were good times, with good things said to one another, smiles and laughter, and not matter how sad I am that we are not friends, and no matter how hurtful her words, those memories will always make me happy and sad. And she can never take away those memories, but she did take away their meaning.

'Just remember, the sweet is never as sweet without the sour, and I know the sour.' - Vanilla Sky


And that will probably be the last time I quote a Tom Cruise movie. Unless he makes Battlefield Earth 2. Or Kindergarten Cop 2 with Dikembe Mutombo or Leonard part 5
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