Sunday, April 20, 2008
And the next morning, something kind of amazing happened. The sun came out again.
Indeed.
It's been a while dear friends and readers....why? Well, work, school, vacations, getting the coche fixed, and women. That's why. But I'm back, and writing to you with the all pieces of my broken heart.
Heard a song the other day- James Blunt- You're Beautiful. And i was overwhelmed with memory and a fantasy at the same time. A fantasy in a good way- how i would tell someone about this special person if she were in the room listening. The song (and yes, he is a depressing English man who literally sings just about women) but it reminds me of the one time, the very one time, that i ever met someone out of happenstance and we both were caught up in what could only be called a romantic movie like moment. Now those who know me well, know that i look for situations like this all the time, but right there on the London tube, I had just seen a face as the Beatles would say.
An initial conversation was followed by a fantastic dinner and drinks, with me leaving the next day, follwed by intense, passionate and open emails, and the both of us re-meeting for an amazing evening in New York City, the heart of passion and love and romance and whatnot (for us American's at least) after the both of us had just left a relationship. And why may you ask did this amazingly Capra-esque romance not work? Cause I pulled a Chasing Amy. And since then, since letting the ex, the distance, the craziness of life get in the way, she has moved on, met someone and is happy. Am I happy for her? Of course. But a part of me, especially with all the bullshit of my current situation, man what i wouldn't give to go back and change it all. Ya know? And yes, things are 20/20 in hindsight, and yes it was probabaly the distance and the realities that stopped the magic of us from happening, but there are days, where i would give anything to be with her. To defy the odds, to defy gravity if you will, and rise above all the crap, all the insecurities and the problesm and the temptations and to make magic happen. But no, cause she is happy, and that is what is important. Right?
It's been a while dear friends and readers....why? Well, work, school, vacations, getting the coche fixed, and women. That's why. But I'm back, and writing to you with the all pieces of my broken heart.
Heard a song the other day- James Blunt- You're Beautiful. And i was overwhelmed with memory and a fantasy at the same time. A fantasy in a good way- how i would tell someone about this special person if she were in the room listening. The song (and yes, he is a depressing English man who literally sings just about women) but it reminds me of the one time, the very one time, that i ever met someone out of happenstance and we both were caught up in what could only be called a romantic movie like moment. Now those who know me well, know that i look for situations like this all the time, but right there on the London tube, I had just seen a face as the Beatles would say.
An initial conversation was followed by a fantastic dinner and drinks, with me leaving the next day, follwed by intense, passionate and open emails, and the both of us re-meeting for an amazing evening in New York City, the heart of passion and love and romance and whatnot (for us American's at least) after the both of us had just left a relationship. And why may you ask did this amazingly Capra-esque romance not work? Cause I pulled a Chasing Amy. And since then, since letting the ex, the distance, the craziness of life get in the way, she has moved on, met someone and is happy. Am I happy for her? Of course. But a part of me, especially with all the bullshit of my current situation, man what i wouldn't give to go back and change it all. Ya know? And yes, things are 20/20 in hindsight, and yes it was probabaly the distance and the realities that stopped the magic of us from happening, but there are days, where i would give anything to be with her. To defy the odds, to defy gravity if you will, and rise above all the crap, all the insecurities and the problesm and the temptations and to make magic happen. But no, cause she is happy, and that is what is important. Right?
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